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I’m having a rough time these days.. I recently discovered that the two people who I held dearest to my heart had an affair with each other behind my back. They seemed to have bonded over a shared secret hatred for me, and while I am trying so hard to forgive and forget I can’t help but be hurt that neither had the decency to involve me. I had introduced them hoping that my ex girlfriend and current lover and I could all have a three way, perhaps make some beautiful content together, or at the very least be best friends. I loved them both more than anyone and wanted them to hit it off- but both seemed to love each other more than I, and it hurts now that I’m looking back and realizing I had no idea. There are hundreds of messages between them that have since been shown to me that states how truly awful I am and always have been, alcohol and flaring tempers left behind a trail of disgust and disrespect I had no clue either of them felt for me. Both of them claimed to love me and talked to me near daily, both offered me support and kindness and I feel I am a fool. I am poly. I introduced my two loves in the hopes that I could feel more beauty in their affections- I long for a three way kind of relationship, whether it be soft and cuddly, a strong friendship, or true passion.. but they feigned disinterest for each other and secretly carried on a several month romance that has had me throwing up from the shock and betrayal of it all for days on end now. I wasn’t planning on sharing any of this. Despite the foundation of their love being built on a secret despise for me, the woman who paid their bills and encouraged them to join me in the sex industry so that they may love themselves and prosper as I had, I never intended to speak ill of them the way they so viciously did of me. I will not mention their names, they don’t deserve to be harassed for simply realizing I wasn’t good enough.. but the ones closest to me were better than I. This post was supposed to be a simple explanation for my mental absence and an apology for not being more attentive to this blog. I’ve been undergoing chemotherapy all alone and secretly so as not to worry the same loved ones who withheld the knowledge from me that they were far more attracted to each other than they ever were me. I hurt, but I don’t wish to carry hatred in my heart. I want to be okay and to trust them, but I can’t help but fear the worst. Trusting so few people and discovering them painted a pretty picture for me to be dazzled by expertly while they giggled at my faith in them has been hard. Please forgive me for the lack of new posts. Every day my footsteps feel a little heavier, keeping my eyes open feels a little bit more unnecessary. I promise you that I will commit as fully as I’m able to being the sex worker I always wanted to be.. but am now admittedly more insecure than I’ve ever been. This is my dream, my role in life, but it’s so hard to model and photograph myself when I’ve felt undesirable for months on end. I believe in myself. I can get better. I hope the belief I have in myself is enough. Read more
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