You wanted some behind the scene action? Here it is!!! Please remind me that its a bad idea to organise a huge shoot alone. 😂. Being a producer, wanting to be behind the cam to make sure you have the angles you want, participating in most matches, shooting customs/ scripts, directing, thinking of the food, the outfits, the props, preparing the place, etc. It was wayyyy too much for me. When this incident happened, there was blacklight everywhere and I almost lost my cool. I wanted to cry. I felt alone. But sometimes, you feel alone because people dont have a clue what you are going through. Nobody knows the amount of work im puting in what I do. On here (OF) on clips4sale on the new venue. Doing everything alone is hard. When I took the shop vac to clean the thousand pieces on the floor, I realized that I need an assistant. A leader. Somebody to help me out with people. Im too close to everybody. It makes things difficult. I feel bad telling them to hurry up, i feel bad to ask them to help me out, I feel bad telling them its not what I asked at all, i feel bad telling them this is not what the script is saying, i feel bad asking them to not giggle in videos, i feel bad saying « HEY! Im alone here! Can somebody take the shop vac and do it while I deal with the other match happening on the other side? ». So yeah. I need an assistant that I can rely on. That ill pay to be there and direct the shoot and help me out! BUT it makes a fun video of me cleaning. At least you can see im Working hard! Read more